the fruit peels and seeds from my breakfast should to be cleaned up
I need to put away the dishes from three days ago too
the post office has escaped me the last week, packages sit on my passenger seat
like forgotten children at the bus stop, waiting to be picked up
checks need to be deposited, invoices issued (because I am broke)
my bed sheets are dirty, but my washer and dryer are small so it takes three loads to do it properly
the flowers on my counter are dropping petals and begging to be returned to the soil from whence they came
my planner taunts me, I fill it out every Sunday but somehow I never check everything off
I have call sheets to make for upcoming shoots and content to plan for the next month
and so many articles to write it makes my head spin
“of course I want to write a travel piece for the magazine”
“deadline in two weeks? that’s fine”
do I have time? no
I’ll make it work, I always do
what about the videos I said I wanted to make for my social media?
what about the photos I still need to edit?
what about the poems I have in my head that are driving me up the wall?
what about the love that escapes me at every turn?
will I ever find someone that loves me for me?
when will I meet him? I want him NOW
I have no business getting into a relationship
there are so many cobwebs to clear and so much love I still need to give myself first
I still cry when I see couples that are in love
I want what they have
the book I started stares at me from it’s google drive prison
one day I will do all the things
one day they will be done
but not today
because today I am alive
Love you.