Life Is Not Fair

nor is it about waiting for the storm to pass

I really hate it takes death to remind us that most things don’t matter and we already have everything we need.

If you follow me on Instagram you know last week I covered the death of a pretty well-known lead singer of a band from Arizona. I didn’t know him personally, but we had quite a few mutual friends and I’ve been feeling the second-hand collective grief in a very real way. He was 32, talented, charismatic, incredibly good looking — a certified bad boy… but like, a nice one.

The band was working on new music and were beginning to see glimmers of real fame on the horizon. Then one random Wednesday night he gets in the wrong car with the wrong people, they crash and he’s gone. It’s hard to wrap your mind around. Harder, impossible even, for the people close to him. Sending my love to you all.

I don’t know if alcohol was involved or not — that’s far from the point.

The point is that I’m grateful I don’t have the guilt of drinking on my conscience right now. It’s sad enough considering someone else’s tragic end, I don’t want to be forced to consider mine, too. I don’t think I’m exaggerating when I say that - if you’re an alcoholic - you risk your life each and every time you drink.

You risk your kids not having a parent or your parents not having a kid. You put your loved ones through otherwise avoidable grief. Seeing this outpouring of sadness over the last week has all but confirmed my decision to be alcohol-free.

Drum roll… it’s also inspired my decision to be weed-free. I know I wrote something not two months ago about how I LoVe wEEd.

And I do. But I can’t right now. I have realized that I’ve simply replaced alcohol with weed and, like, what’s the point of that? I have found myself not enjoying smoking, so, again, what’s the point?

I’ve decided life is just too short for shit like that in your life. I don’t want to live my life half-assed or wondering what I could’ve been. I don’t know when I’m quitting, but it will be very soon. Probably June 1. I’ll keep you posted on the plan.

#katastroforever