I'm a Little Confused

what was the point of this again?

Wednesday night is when I usually write, but tonight I’m going to debate my existence and figure out why I’m writing this thing in the first place. I need clarity. I sort of feel like I’m just shouting into the abyss.

I’ve come to the realization that I’ve been using this as my personal diary and not writing stuff of actual value – entertainment or otherwise. That’s boring and unexciting. I mean I didn’t really have a plan going into this so I suppose that is to be expected.

What’s the point, you know? I feel like people don’t want to read about sobriety every single time, but also that is the whole point. Is it the point? Is that why I started writing this? I think I started this because I wanted to quit drinking and needed the threat of public shame as an accountability tool.

I always said this would be solely for me and I didn’t care if anyone read it or not. I still feel that way. However, I think I need to start spending more time coming up with valuable, interesting topics. No one wants to read about what I did with my kids.

Let’s talk about other stuff. I’m going to go brainstorm some fun things to talk about. We can reconnect next week.